…Changing my name to Sunshine Freedom Flower. No…not really….maybe Kay’s Solo Playground….nahhh….but I do have the sex and candy…just no, well no…I don’t have my….ummm..my um…(sniffle..sniffle)…partner in crime….(big gasping sob…boohoohoo…wahhhhh…)
Was doing some thinking about my blog mission last night and what ran through my mind again and again is “mission fail”. No, not in the big, broad sense it hasn’t. My dating endeavors are going just fine (at least as far as being somewhat interesting and staying busy in that department). Ironically, it’s the partnership-blogging endeavor itself that just doesn’t seem to be taking off. I feel like the lost and forgotten fanny-pack in the back of the closet or that pair of purple parachute pants hanging all alone at the Salvation Army… I’m feeling like Cher, naked on the piano, without Sonny playing…Hutch cruising around sans Starsky…Barbie at the pool party with a coupla “Kens” hanging around maybe but nooooo Skipper …Laverne skipping down the street with her arm linked to..umm..to nothing…to no one because Shirley’s not there…
I’m no stranger to the failed mission, so it isn’t as though I’m devastated or heartbroken. Disappointed, yes…but I’m certainly no stranger to that either! I own Jerry Maguire’s jacket…he borrowed that from me, by the way… but that’s another “non-date” post altogether though 😉
My original intent was to kick-start my friend and I on our dating endeavors; push through the fears, hesitations, anxieties, etc… and also to stay in close touch with my dear friend from back home… So I discussed my idea with Pau! who seemed very interested and we were so excited that we instantly created this blog. Combining our names to create it and jumping right in with all the gusto I could muster.
..yet from the beginning…I’ve been running around in the parachute pants all alone in this…. and other than a few fabulous other bloggers out there I’ve been fortunate enough to cross paths with here in blogworld…I have been attacking this “mission” alone..at least the blog-posting part..thank God not the dating part.. solo dates would kinda suck, no matter how freakin fabulous and fun I am 😉 )
And every time I’m referred to as Ka!Pau!, I feel a little guilty because half of Ka!Pau! isn’t even here…and Pau! is her own beautiful, opinionated, intelligent lady, who just might not want to be taking blame/credit/curses for my random postings, off-the-hip comments, ridiculous thoughts, and embarrassing dating ordeals… So, today I’ve faced these facts and have changed my “name” here to a singular expression of the Ka! half of our original Ka!Pau!
However, I’m still hopeful and optimistic that the lovely Ms. Pau! might choose to visit and/or post on occasion…I miss her reflective thoughts and her hysterically funny witticisms!
…but that’s okay too…I’m no stranger to missing things either….both “missing” them and “oops now that’s gone missing“…