Me: Things have been crazy w/my ex..ughh…and ur last texts didn’t really make much sense 2me..so I haven’t called or txtd lately…
L: What lasts texts(it has been over 5 days….)? Give me a thumbnail of that. I worked 18 hours on Sat and my head hasn’t been n it since
L: Are u ok? Would a well placed bullet help resolve ur prob? :-)I’m kidding. I thought you were avoiding me n I was giving u space. (Yes, I was and thank you)
L: Is this thing on? (C’MON???!!?? For the love of God!)
Me (an hour later…and very annoyed): (His name), I am often doing 20 diff things at once..i rarely sit by my phone waiting around 2 txt..wish ud try 2 understand that..it’s frustrating 2feel so much pressure 2jump on my txt b4 I do other things Im doing
L; That’s why I was giving u space (he’s still just not getting it). I know u have other things that take precedent over dating. Im not throwing a tantrum over this believe me (what does that even mean?)
Me:…but if I don’t respond n UR time u txt like its been answered when sometimes ive not even read the txt yet….n u keep saying u understand..but u don’t act like u really do
L: Guess I’m takin a diff perspective. When I respond 2 txts that have been sent immediately. Im under the impression that ur still by the phone waiting 4 a response. Stupid of me 2 assume I guess. (yes it is…gosh…is he finally sorta getting it???)
Me: I just should’t feel that much pressure or stress just by txting w/u..its a bit hard 2deal w/teens dealing w/major changes, deal w/my ex, and my kids activities too while staying a slave 2my phone so I can bsure 2 txt u back n time 4 u not 2feel uncomfortable or neglected.
Me: I try 2 txt back timely but sometimes I txt n then have 2go do something away frm my phn..n figure np..ill just txt back when I get back 2it.
L: well I hate texting anyway and I thought I mentioned that. But the little things I send after a txt like “is this thing on” are really for my own entertainment (hmmm..well at least someone’s getting entertained by these…)
Me: ok…but u jump 2 conclusions if I don’t answer immed..n last time I had 25 things going at once n I had told u that too
L: I’m not passive aggressive and generally if theres a problem I’m very direct n my approach. If someone says they have things 2take care of I give them the space they need or I offer 2 help. And I don’t think I’ve been nagging u. well maybe a little but I’ve been waiting 4 ur cue
Me: well I’m going 2bed now…g’night
L: sleep well. Kisses…
–I just don’t understand this crap! I almost want to just ignore him completely, but he’s such a nice person, and I was more attracted to him in person than I thought I would be. And because he’s so genuinely nice, I just feel terrible to blow him off completely.
He’s a small town Midwestern guy (like me). We seem to have some similarities which are refreshing to me while I’m living here so far from home… I just can’t quite put my finger on why he annoys me so much the other 50% of the time!! …and it does seem about 50/50 at this point: 50% annoying, 50% redeeming qualities. He only got a return text because when I finally just ignored his last rambling (at 6:30 AM!!) text, he left me alone for a few days until he heard from me again. That’s a good sign… He’s at least making some effort not to annoy the living bejeezus outta me!
Update on“M”: Looks like Friday is swimming night. He just texted asking if we want to meet out somewhere or at my pool or his. I just said whatever is fine. I’m actually just a bit nervous. The pressure is on to look good in a swimsuit. I’m not ashamed of my body really, but I’m also not typically a flaunter-type either… I’m sure to many, my body is effin’ phenomenal and to others, it’s okay but maybe not their “ideal type”. I lean toward the thin side and that’s certainly not everyone’s idea of perfection… and I’m okay with that. Beauty is truly in the eye of the beholder and particularly when it comes to a woman’s figure. It just feels oddly strange knowing that this entire “date” came from him asking for a swimsuit pic…and not just him asking to hang out with me… And why does that even matter??!? Should it?
I just can’t decide… but it almost now has a clinical feel to it because it feels as if there is a distinct purpose..not just a general, mutual desire to hang out.
I also can’t shake the questions. He met me once and then asked for a swimsuit pic…. Does this guy have a big thing for the whole pic thing? Does he have a long list of girls from the site (and anywhere else too)with whom he shares (and saves) their various pics? Is he more into having a “thing” with a bunch of girls’ pics or into actually dating someone? Is he too caught up in virtual-land that that’s become better to him than any reality he could create and share with a real live girl? What does all of that mean in the dating world?
For some reason. a post I recently read about an online date comes to mind with these questions: An online date leads to sex and immediately after sex, the guy is online checking the dating site.
… And why in the hell do I have to analyze everything?